Tick, tock.

Is it odd that this wait isn't really bothering me? It's the worst part for most IVF'ers - although, I'm going out on a limb and saying most IVF'ers don't have intramuscular stims and PIO and the suppositories...so perhaps my take on this is a touch skewed.

See, since my body has been such a colossal failure in terms of even responding to treatment, that part of any cycle is the worst for me. Waiting to see if I respond. The doctors are always so positive, because the fact is the vast majority of women will respond the drugs. My ovaries have an attitude problem, much like their bodily host I suppose, and have a tendency to rebel against any and all drugs. Even this time, I was on high dosages of different injections...the drugs my RE kept calling "the gooooood drugs", and my ovaries still managed to flip everyone off and run the other way.

Getting to the oh so dreaded "two week wait" is a huge accomplishment for me. In an entire year of treatment, I've really only had two, including this one. I always knew before hand that the cycle was fucked. Really, I could wait like this forever, if it wasn't for my self-imposed clean living that I guarantee will go out the window the very moment a negative beta is hurled at me.

But for now, I guess I'm content in this land of not knowing. Because not knowing means not knowing if it failed just as much as not knowing if I'm pregnant. And frankly, I'm ok with not knowing either right now.

The Grass is Always Greener

In terms of progesterone supplementation post IVF transfer (pretty much no matter what your protocol is, you'll be on progesterone), the grass seems to always be greener on the other side.

Those that endure the daily PIO shots - progesterone in oil shots which are intramuscular, a big needle and a thick substance that injects oh so very slowly - often would rather they had the suppositories.

Those that endure the suppositories - which are large, vaginal suppositories that have a tendency to leak quite a bit so you're prisoner to the panty liner for the entire time you're on them - often would rather have the shot and just get it over with.

What's my preference. Well. How about just one freaking progesterone supplementation method? I'll take either shots or suppositories. Because at this point, I get both. BOTH.